it's crazy, sometimes stupid, but it's love. 09-01-11

There is no easier way to break this out.

All I can do is to hold on to that last memory

of holding her tight in my arms as I'll have to wait for a couple of years

until I get to be with her again.

I'll miss holding her hand, her scent, her smile,

and especially when she laughs and giggles.

Having her in my life makes me feel secured

and everything else becomes more simple.

I'll miss her kiss,

and the way she feeds me like a sumo wrestler with the unli kanin and ulam

whenever I have lunch and dinner at her place.

I'll miss her eyes, and the way she makes a cat like smile with her lips.

I'll miss our late night talks on the phone

and the endless nights of securing guests for 7th high.

I'll miss the way she tickles my neck until I shiver.

And the times when I watch her do her weekly report during her day offs.

I'll miss waiting for her to get home after work,

and how we compare our experiences on riding the killer bus via Novaliches.

I'll miss her long brown hair,

since eventually she'll cut it short for a change.

And now suddenly whenever I sing a song, I think of her,

and every love quotes that I read are starting to become all familiar.

It is all because I flew far away on a jet plane,

and all that's left for me to say is when I get back, I'll bring her a wedding ring.

But don't get me wrong,

there's still so much for us to learn and to experience.

And though it'll be 700 plus days that will be stolen away from us,

I promise myself to make up for the time lost for every single day that

I will be spending with her when I get back.

Call me mushy and cheesy,

but I really miss Tammy.

And I just couldn't help myself to miss her more every single day.

I love her so much, and there is not a single thing created in this whole universe that would change that.

Here's to spending the 1st month anniversary away from each other.

Happy 40th months hun! :)

I miss you!

>redgiewedgie

what is it like to live a life like an Hour Glass?

I still look back on the last 3weeks of my stay in Manila, just after I learned about my departure date. Sudden emotions just rushes through my thoughts, and feelings of sorrow and happiness both lingers while I still try to get a grip of the opportunity that has come forth before me. "Sad Happy" is the exact feeling.

I feel so bummed out since I will have to set aside much of the things that makes up my whole being. And because of so much stress that must be endured as waiting to get back quickly makes the simpler things more difficult.

Happy for the reason of finally starting something new for myself, as this next chapter would eventually open the doors to my fantasies and the endless dreams that I have been wishing for myself.

I tried slowing down time by creating a bucket list of the things I want and I have to do before I leave, and it was definitely worth the fun running down the list one by one.

And soon as you neared the finish line, you'll notice the things that you never usually give time for. 

The experience definitely fits the question, "if you have a few seconds to live, what would you do?"

Probably the most frequent line that I kept on saying during all those times was:

"The hardest way of saying goodbye is having to go separate ways at a certain point, and both of you would have to go back alone with that final goodbye flashing like a head light at the back of your head."

You just could not control your tears.

Though I failed to say goodbye to everyone that I wanted to see before I left, I still feel blessed, and I could say that I tried my best to "make those last seconds count".

The sand has ran out.

Time to turn it upside down again.

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